college life!

today in my ap liteture and compsition class i finally completed my last draft of my personal statements that i would be sending off to my colleges. my adreneline is practically popping out my vains! im so scared and excited at the same time its so ridicoulous. i had to blog about it because this the only topic that has been on my mind everys single day of my life since highschool started. i dont know what to expect and im nervous of what to expect but i will accept the fact that i am going to college i cant let fear make me turn around, man i've come to far. you highschool seniors dont have that feeling? that your life is really about to independently begin? i know you must. it seems as though my family doesnt really realize how close it is and it may be next year but a month has already been completed. the thought of this makes me smile that i have done something that i have made it that i will be somebody. not that i doughted myself or anything it's just that little thought in the back of my mind that its really HERE ! i wonder if my teacher felt this way before and after they graduated. what are there thoughst how do they feel? is colleg worth the money put into it? im curious. im a very excited person always keeps a smile on my face so deep down nobody would know im really trembeling inside because of whats going to happen when i graduate. dont get me wrong im ready but am iready to surface the challeges life throws at me? are you? so many questions scrambling my mind its almost screaming for answer. i wish my class the best of luck they've all come so far and im more then honorored to cross the stage with half of the people i will despite arguments and dissagreements these are people i will never forget meeting. females in highschool? UGHHHH * will the college girls be the same. males in highschool? BLAHHH * will they be the same ? i want to continue this blog by the end of the year describing everthing that has happened and that i have over comed so this will just have to be continued . . .